apolilogies

well,it’s been quite a while since i last blogged.
many things have happened.well,not really..it’s just the same old same old weariness everyday.
sleep.eat.school.work.smoke.laptop.
kinda like my everyday routine nowadays.
now i have one more thing to add.
girls.
or maybe just singular.
girl.
need to try to squeeze her into my already oh so busy schedule.
nonetheless, anything for girl okay?
by the way, if people has been to my facebook account and seen the change in status.
stop asking who it is.
if i have one, i’ll tell you.
but i don’t have one now  sheesh.
people assume too much.
im not hotstuff or mr nice guy to get a lover so easily.
sure i got loads of girl-friends.
but i don’t have a girlfriend

oh well, im working closing later at 4pm..maybe should come down earlier..or maybe..

until next time,
squeaky2.

mesopotamia

i’ve decided to fully manage my time wisely…
morning go to school like a good boy.
evening come down to work.
reach home 2am and do my work till finish..
sleep by 4am.
wake up at 6am to prepare for school.
and the cycle goes on and on for 3 weekdays and the weekends.
i hope my holidays are really holidays

i find people nowadays tend to be rather spoilt brats.

until next time,
squeaky2.

love it like hell or hate it till heaven

slowly i lost the passion..the passion to smile with sincerity(i’ve been doing it okay..)
but nowadays,it seems my smiles are either used to bear my sorrows or are simply wasted on stupid girls.
don’t try to pin a tail on my ass and start questioning me about this.
i won’t bother anymore. in fact, i’ve always been bothered by negative comments sometimes i wonder why people bother to comment so badly in the first place.
unless i did something to that person, who’re they to think that i’m all to blame when they don’t even know the fuck about it.
things just seem to go the opposite direction everytime i try to step it up a notch.
it’s like, having your feelings set up so high and happy and before you know it, everything crashes down. from heaven to hell in a sense of distance.
it would’ve been better if i didn’t try to smile than to have smiled at all.
at least people know me to never be the joking kind.
everytime i smile, people are happy and they end up not taking me seriously.
but when i don’t smile, people take me too seriously and end up being scared.

humans have such complicated minds. all i want is to just be happy with one fucking person…just ONE fucking person. too much to ask? then nevermind. i’ll grow to be kick-ass rich..i wanna get a 3 storey bungalow(basement+2 floors) and live with my mummy. the rest can just go fuck themselves upside down. think you’re worth it being with me..fuck yourself.all i ever did was care and you guys just throw me by the side like im not even needed anymore. stupid ass motherfuckers.

girls have a way more complicated mind than guys.unfortunately, many see me think as complicated as a girl. im a guy with huge emotional disorders due to stupid unreasonable rejections and a very weak and soft heart. if you can’t even take care of that, you have a fat chance of trying to make my whole self yours.

until next time,
squeaky2 kinda pissed off already.going operation.

gone like the wind.

i officially declare myself to have lost all sense of sociability. sure it’s juggling between school and work…but school is already time-consuming due to heavy modules.and work’s kinda putting pressure to commit. sure i just complain and complain and i end up helping.but in the end, im at the losing end. shouldn’t have joined work in the first place.hmph.

chis berderbar..

i am so sleepy..hahah..oh well..its nothing really..not that i care anyway…sheesh
i’m seriously oblivious to what i’m typing so just ignore the update for today k?
speaking in a very low tone is roughing up my voice box. so unglamorous and not very sexy!

until next time,
squeaky2.

i still got time.it’s just a day.

should i be wasting my time doing unnecessary things which do not account for my future?i shouldn’t right? then again, i have a commitment to keep.and i keep to my word. though i don’t promise(rare occassions).

so anyways,

today nothing much. only had 2 hour lesson.ended up playing bomberman with my classmates during lecture. so yeah..whole lesson never listened.the game’s fucking addictive.then..

work..shan’t talk about it.it was fun in the end.kecoh finish up things just to chase the transport.hahahhaha

im not sleepy.just bloody tired.not getting enough sleep actually.oh well, i shan’t complain. i have to remember im doing things with sincerity.but there’s no denying the fact that i’m a hypocrite(even if i don’t want to admit it till i die)

until next time,
squeaky2.

slave 4 you

totally addicted to britney spears’ Slave 4 You.
though my intention was to get the choreography and not the song itself.
nevertheless,the song has a rather unique meaning to it.
anyways, today was bad,considering that i got dissed by someone.

i don’t really wanna talk about that part cos i don’t want to waste my time dwelling about it.
basically, didn’t go to school cos i woke up late -.-”
decided to meet up with girlfriend for fun,joy and laughter..
then now i’m at home, trying to fight for my life(due to fatigue) to finish up my assignments.
now i’m starting to hate work for making me tired, school for the fucked up workload, home for making me feel lonely most of the time and myself, for being such an evil person. i’ve never forgiven my past yet.i just forget about it.
somehow, it’s not easy.having to try and forgive myself for 3 years for all the sins i did for 3 years.

i’m a slave 4 you

p.s/i made a new word at work whenever i get pissed off by assholic customers.
babi unta kepala pundek.

until next time,
squeaky2.

fatigue and migraine

i hate work.
i hate school.
but i still love my family.who doesn’t right?
been skipping school these past few days.
i must make full use of the night to do my work while i go to school in the morning..
but gosh, my stamina’s like deproving at an alarming rate.i don’t even have time to go to the gym..
seems like everything’s turned to a load of crap.

until next time,
squeaky2.

chicken ham and airpork

like i say, my title has got nothing to do with what i write. so if you really wonder what i’m gonna write about based on the title. you’re either ignorant or plain dumb. i repeated this quite a number of times in the past.

anyways, nothing much to blog. the usual school/work/home routine. i haven’t been doing my homework/assignments lately..and frankly, i need to go out soon. i don’t want to get caught up in work and school all the time. but i’m only free on evenings. and because of my unfortunate “being committed to something” character,i end up occupying my time working..AIN!

i know i didn’t promise anything about watching 2012 together..but i did say we’ll watch it one day.. so on the 13th make yourself free k?after movies we go the beach to bitch around again hahahah i really love the sea. makes me calm..the only thing left to make it perfect is to walk along the beach.

i think my life’s gonna turn upside and down.

until next time,
squeaky2.

a new piece of crap.

well, life just turned a new direction and i’m pretty much too tired thinking about compromising anything right now. all i can do is just sigh, push it away and just go with the flow. the problem is, i feel that i’m always being depended on by many people. so not good for my own free time. i should just hang on to the edge of the cliff and just let go and fall into the sea. maybe i’ll do that. soon. after i graduate from school, work(again) and other things.

until next time,
squeaky2.